Highs & Lows. Ups & Downs

Day 9 – Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Boy do I have a lot of mixed emotions today. One moment I am feeling good riding high and the next I’m agitated. I must admit since starting this lifestyle change my tolerance level at times is extremely low. I am hoping that changes soon. I get annoyed easily and I really have zero patience at all. The dear hubby has been understanding but I don’t know how long he will tolerate it. I am going to try and make a conscience effort to watch my tone and take more breaths. I’m also hoping maybe it is another sign of detox and I am getting rid of all the stuff in my system but I would think that after 9 days detox wouldn’t be an issue.

That’s where I am a little frustrated with my trainer. I was hoping that there would be me communication. Instead of just “training” me we could talk about the feelings both emotional and physical. But maybe that’s what a therapist is for. I just wish that I could find out if the things that I am experiencing is normal and to be expected. Because in all honesty I don’t know if what I am going through is normal.

I’ve been told that I can email questions with answers being provided on Fridays. Makes it seem so impersonal, but I think I will give it a try. I need to also do more research to find out what a trainers job description covers and what I should expect for the monthly fee I am being charged. I think I am paying a high amount of money so I expect a lot but maybe the reality of it is, I’m not paying all that much. I don’t know but it’s not worth me getting stressed over, so time to move on.

I came to a realization, or maybe a better word would be observation, today. Today I realized that come 2:00 pm I’m not yawning, exhausted and constantly watching the clock waiting for it to be time to go home. Ok, that last part if a lie, I’m still watching the clock to have my shift end but it’s so I can get to the gym and get my workout in. But I remember so many days thinking am I going to make it through the day without falling asleep? Well that is not the case anymore. For today anyway but I don’t remember feeling that way yesterday either. There really is something to be said for Eating Clean. It works and boy do I feel different.

Well there’s a post for you that sums it up. In the matter of minutes I had an up and a down. Geez…..

On, to being an “After”