Ok maybe it won’t seem like a major milestone to most but to me it was pretty huge. In the past I would refer to these as Non Scale Victories (NSV) and it still sort of is one but I’m trying to lose focus of the sale. Yes I will still weight myself and report those numbers and be happy or sad about what it says, but I am trying to put less emphasis on it. I’m trying now to go more for the “feeling”. How do I “feel” mentally, how do I “feel” physically, how do my clothes “feel”? That who attitude.
Anyway back to what I originally meant to talk about. Yesterday and my accomplishments! Yesterday afternoon we had a bit of bad news thrown our way. The dear hubby was laid off from work. We’ve gone through a lot in the last 5 years. We both lost our jobs 4 years ago on the same day. Our world was turned upside down. I’m not going to harp on it or talk about it in detail because it is the past and who wants to hear about it anyway? But we were starting to get back on our feet and then this happened…yet again. Anyway, yesterday after receiving the news I did think about all the terrible things I wanted to do to myself. Go out, get drunk, eat and just escape from reality. But instead what did I do? I went along with my workout as planned. I stuck to eating right and not giving in to the evils. And it felt great waking up this morning knowing that I did something good and positive for me even though I didn’t want to.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still pretty upset and bitter about our situation but I am trying very hard to look on the positive side of it all. Having faith that things will be ok and still making time for myself and making sure I take care of myself. If I went back now and said screw it to this new lifestyle what would it accomplish? Nothing. It might make me escape from reality for that moment but reality is only going to hit harder later on after I’ve wised up from my actions. But I will head this thing straight on and not stray from myself and my health. I will continue to do this.
So today I am proud of myself and my accomplishments.
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